Sicko Day

Ups and downs the entire day. I am sick of all the crap that keeps bugging me. When will i ever get out of this turmoil? I cant have a good rest. NO REST. Whenever i read my past entries, i pity myself. Wat on earth went wrong and i have to stuck in this kind of shitty situation?

I dun blame others. I blame myself. People get stress cos of work, the work itself, i get stress for trivial matters. Lian described her workplace as a dumping ground. I would say mine is a landmine. I really feel like buying a ticket and leave this place. Life is too hard. I just want some quieter and peaceful life.

People work hard. I am too. People get tangible benefits, but i dun. Fair? To make things worse, there are some who are well paid but less stress. Bringing overseas colleagues to club, to have good food is part of job. DAmn. I have been keeping cool over the last few months. However, that doesnt mean i am entirely satisfied.

Was watching a tv drama, "Life Story" on channel 5 earlier. Brought me lots of memories when the world nearly turn upside down for me. The story is about a teenager, who often returns home late, made empty promises, parents worried...blah blah blah. The exact scenario took place, 10 years ago.

Mum waiting late for children to come home. Parents quarreled becos of rebellious kid. Lies became part and parcel of life. Vulgarities became the only communication between kid and parent. Sleepless night, praying hard that nothing will happen. I hated that kind of anxiety and feeling.

Sometimes, i cant bring myself to forgive someone who hurt the family so much. Although time have passed, the scar is still there. I was staring at the tv and just couldnt hold back my tears. Bad memories. I simply wish nothing had happened.

No matter wat, its a new day tomolo. Everything will come to an end soon. Will sleep early, try to forget abt what happen. Earth will spin even though i am unhappy. It wont stop for me. Its a choice. A sleep will do me good. I want better opportunity, i want better luck. Wish me luck ya!!!

Its a Small World

Wanted to go to bed but i am too high to sleep!!! hahahaha... Very simple reason. Had a fantastic time at Dbl O tonight. Met many pple this time. Who was here? Mulian! Yes, its her again. Cant believe it. I tot marriage would keep her away. I guess i am wrong. Maybe she is still young.

Next, I finally remembered the guy who called me. Yes, it was Eric, my junior in hall 9. In one of my previous entry, i talked abt him. He called me but i din know his name. So paiseh. hahahaha... Anyway, he was wif his gf. Aiyoh, so young. Wanted to get him on platform but he was too carried away wif his gf. hee...

The more happening one? Yes, get to know one of the regulars. Its David. Very nice guy. This young guy happened to know one of my CLASSMATE!!! Argh! MJR classmate, Jas. That also means, my age has been revealed. Thankfully, i have never spoken ill of anyone. The world is small, remember?

Cos of Jas, we became good friends. Whahaha... He has always noticed Ken and me. Why? Cos he said we danced quite well. I was like.. damn paiseh. I think he is even better. He should be the master. whahaha... We chatted a while, wif him and my classmate Jas. It was so funny lor. I mean people cant do evil stuff.

Oh yes, he asked if i have a gf. I told him yes. His reply was, wah your gf is very sweet and understanding. I was like... suddenly very touch too. Not touch by him hor, ha... i mean touched by Jun. All these while, she has been very supportive and understanding. Lilian is rite. At least i have a good family and a nice gf. I have no regrets.

Back to other stuff, met Thai King finally. This guy is living like a king in Thai. Joined clubs, managed a factory himself. How nice. Of course, there are times of loneliness. However, he said these are experiences that one can never have. I agree. He also said, once he had accumulate sufficient experience, he will move on to a MNC. By that time, his market value will go up. True also. Unlike me, sometime i also dunno wat i am doing. ha... No doubt this is a job i enjoy, there are still uncertainties ahead. Well....

Alright, shall go to bed now. Tired liao. Still have a long day tom. Every Sunday, i turn bionic. Ha... Tuition then head for work. Suck! For the money, i endure.

In Gear 5

Ed is back in Singapore after a few months in Thai. Yep, we will be having a mini gathtering later today in town. I guess we will have lots of gossips and ba gua again. Have not been meeting up NTU pple since few months ago. Its time for catching up. I love this kind of gathering.

This evening, i received a crappy sms from a friend
Tom Dinner. Thai King has requested everyone to attend, if not you will be beheaded.

I almost burst out laughing when i saw the message. Thai King refers to Ed. Well, his return coincides with my off days. Yeah! I am glad i will be able to make it, if not, i think my head will be at the gallows. whahahah.....

Anyway, received plenty of calls today. One of them made my day. Really. Sometimes, these calls really perks me up. In a very happy mood now. The outing plus Dbl O makes me so high, i am now in gear 5. hahahaha....If everyday is like tat, life would be fantastic!!!

Crisis Strikes

Just when everything is abt to return normal, a catastrophic event strikes office. OMG! Then, a series of negative events came along, that gave everyone a big headache and burden. Life is already very stress, with all these, it makes life even more miserable. Wat the hell went wrong???

I must admit there are hipcups all the way. I remembered i once told jun, when something bad happen, it will occur simultaneously. Naively, you think its over, time to move on, then another new issue surfaced, then next. Aiyoh.. So pathetic. Its like a vicious cycle, you cant stop them from repeating. Argh....It's just scary.

Anyway, back to other issues, i was listening to Love 972 over the last few days. Yep, i know its kind of auntie. Ha... But i enjoy Billy Wang aka Dongfang Bili program from 10am to 2pm. Its funny cos u get to hear all kind of stories from our home grown aunties.

Mr Billy, who acts like an advisor, will provide all kind of solutions. Ranging from relationship, medical to family problems. Many aunties love him so much. That is why he has been crowned the most popular Dj in Caldecott Hill several times. Frankly speaking, i was a fan of his when he started out as a Dj in 958. (OMG, i am damn auntie)

During tat time, he hosted evening drive time show with Cai Qi Sang, who had disappeared from the air waves. Then he moved on to host the midnight show. Tell u something, i listened to his program every night. Yes, 11pm till 2am, Cheng Shi Wu Ye Chang. Whoo.... It was entertaining and funny. I was sec 2 or sec 3 at that time.

So why did i fall in love with radio so much? I guess some influence must have come from him. ha... I remembered i even recorded his program and play it again the next day. Really crazy. It was those days that i glued to radio like no tomolo. I din like 933, cos it was all songs all day. Only get to fall in love with 933 some years later. It's another story. whahaha....

Ok, time to sleep. Hopefully, a brighter day tomolo!!!

Relax Mood

Its mid week! Blasting mambo songs on my computer! whahahaha..... Got back from a date with jun. Feel so relax. With nice songs playing right now, my mood is even more relax. Life would be cool if i could just leave work behind and forget abt everything.

I once read a friend's blog. He wish to buy an air ticket, leave everything behind, find a place in Europe, live in a little cottage for a month. I have this kind of feelings too. Needed some time to recharge and rethink. Things are moving fast, we dun have time for ourselves. Work work work. Haiz...

Finally had an off day. Chill out with Jun for a moment and that makes me fresher. To follow up on wat Lilian and Jun said, it is true that one needs to be contented. What we are doing now is for the better of tomolo. hmm... Time to move on...

Harsh Reality

I am turning into a bionic man very soon. Whahaha... Why? Slept for 3 hours, rushed for tuition, then headed to work. Major events taking place, that kept me busy throughout the day. By the way, its SUNDAY, when everyone is enjoying their weekend. I am back in office pulling my hair like no body business. Argh...

Sometimes, i think of friends around me. I told jun and even ken, we worked so hard yet earn peanuts. There are others, who worked as hard but earn a million. Damnz. We are still being managed like a small fry in an organisation. Others have started managing pple. I look for jobs, for others, jobs look for them. What the hell is going on?

I cant help but feel demoralise or better still, disgusted. I blame myself for my so-so achievement. Ken said, we are not stupid but why are we treated this way. I have not really thought abt it. However, what he said is pretty true.

The movie, "Click" which i watched it with jun, reflected some reality in life. No doubt you can have success in career, nothing beats the love at home. I kinda agree. Nonetheless, without bread and butter, everything will crash into pieces esp life in Singapore.

I pity the lead actor, who wants to give his family a comfortable home, but have to work long hours daily. On the other hand, i also understand the wife, who wants a husband who could spend more time at home. Its a matter of give and take. It is difficult to have the best of both world.

Cost of living in Singapore is high. There is no way we can avoid. To start a family means financially ready. No money no talk. It may sound simple but in the harsh reality, this is true. Ask ard, if someone can say "no money can talk", let me know. I dun mind pple donating into my funds. ha... I can let you know my account.

If only i am better paid... haiz...

Singapore Idol

I havent being following Singapore Idol lately till Ken told me something. Yes, Hady. Whose that? Well, if you have been following Singapore Idol closely, you should know who this fella is. He has good vocal, and he is none other than the lead singer from Devils Bar.

Whahhaaha... Aiyoh, he went on National TV yet i din know. Call myself a regular at Devils Bar. Boo. Anyway, it was long time ago. Not been to Devils Bar after i came over to Dbl O. Hady has been on tv for sometime yet i din find out. hahah... Wat have i been doing?

Although i din know him personally, i used to enjoy his songs at Devils Bar. He was a popular singer. His famous song, "The Reason". Anyone who ever hear him sing will agree with me. He is still in the race. I hope he will win. He really sings. As for the rest, i got no idea who the hell they are. However, most of them look young.

Had a good rest at home. Din do much, sleep, eat and sleep. ha... At least i am healthy, i made a trip to PF to do some cardio. Came home, watch tv then surf the net. It has been a long time since i stayed at home at night. Most of the time, i will be either at work or outside.

Nothing beats the comfort of Home!

Coping with Stress

Inspired by the conversation with jun earlier, i have decided to pen down some thoughts on work stress. Well, i guess anyone who is in the labour market will somehow face a series of stress, in one way or another. To learn how to cope with it is an arduous task. Some pple can do it easily while others may have a hard time.

Tell me, how many of you have never screw up in work? Touch your heart as you answer this. I am sure almost 100% of you out there did. haha... Dun worry, I am one of them too. I mean no one in this world is infallible. We are not saints remember.

Now, in the event of a screw up, who to bear the responsiblity? Many pple will play the art of "Taiji". X blames Y, Y blames Z, Z blames X. Who is in the wrong? Such incidents occur everyday. No matter where you go, it is common to see these kind of shitty situations. Someone will eventually be the scapegoat. Call urself unlucky if u become one.

There are many things that you wish to control. However, on many occasions, it will go out of hand. If you cant control, then adapt to the change. It is always easier said than done. Seriously, one have to master the art of letting go when the time comes. We got only a pair of hands, with many unforseen situations coming along, i doubt we can handle it well.

Hmm... after saying so much, i also feel good. ha... Cos it is a way to comfort myself too. whahaha... Jie hua xian fo! Heading to bed soon. A new work week has just started. 2 more days to the next off day!!!

One is not Enough

I have seen all kinds of relationship, heterosexual, homosexual etc. But this is the first time i see something that really digust me a lot. I have no problems with gay friends or even lesbian friends, what irks me is the degree of faithfulnees. Well, if you are in a relationship, trust is important, so is faithfulness.

Someone, whom i cannot reveal is in relationship (she's a gal) with a guy. Despite being in a relationship, she behaves too intimately with other guys too. I remembered once seeing her kissing a guy (fyi mouth to mouth type) while this stupid guy is still wooing her. OMG! Seriously, any guy would not be able to stand, worse till if they are already in relationship.

A friend once told me, this girl is only suitable for ONT. I tot that was a bit too much. However, seeing the way she behaves and dress, i have no qualms abt it. I think her bf is happy abt her wearing skimply to nitespots and stuff. Yar, then attract the attention of others. Well done. Very proud of them.

Aei, wa aei zha bo peng you chean ka ah ni kuan, chio bor? buay soo sei leh... wa wu bin zhu.. (In hokkien)
Loosely translated, Look at the way my gf dressed, pretty? Wont make me feel embarassed. I am so proud of her!

I tell you, this is the kind of stupid guy who will eventually get cheated. I will say the guy looks pretty decent. So the chinese proverbs is true afterall.

Usual: Nan ren bu huai, nv ren bu ai!
Latest: Nv ren bu huai, nan ren bu ai!

SUAY SUAY SUAY! whahaha... Maybe i am just conservative. This is the 21st century, the gays are already advocating their rights. Wat abt the heterosexual? They want something different, something that will spice up their life. Hmm, the guy probably enjoy it. The gal? I guess i dun need to explain, one guy is not enough.

3 Special Occasions

Work capacity has increased recently as a result of some colleagues leaving. I am still coping fine with more opportunities to stay out of office. whahaha... To sit in the office everyday can be boring at times. I was asked to go to the airport again for work. Thanks to the terror plot in London.

Tourists were seen unpacking their luggage cos they were advice not to hand carry their luggage. They were given plastic bag to keep their personal item. If i were to go London, i think i would have fainted. Very troublesome. Bear in mind the flight is more than 12 hours. Not sure if the check in luggage will be lost since Heathrow airport is in a mess now.

Anyway, i wanted to blog abt a couple of anniversaries during this period but din have the time. Here are the three special occasions.

1)Our Anniversary
Its jun and me, our 4th anniversary since we met in 2002. It has been a wonderful moment for me over the last 4 years. I really appreciate all the things that she has done for me. Although our career have just started, which means more work, less time to meet, the care and concern always touch my heart. I am thankful she is understanding. More years to come ya!

2)Singapore's Anniversary
Its Singapore's independence day on 9 August. I was at the National Stadium last night to witness the last parade, before the stadium demolishes to make way for a new sports hub. By the way, i was there for work and not as a spectator. boo.. I saw Gerald. Ha... He was with a pretty lady, i wonder who she is.

Anyway, rushed ard the stadium like mad hoping to get some participants. Fortunately, things turned out fine. However, most participants went crazy after the show. Taking photos, dancing, reminiscing the stadium for the last time.

Then again, it is the day when former prime minister LKY, shed tears on national TV 41 years ago. I guess everyone remembered that scene. It was replayed on TV again. Well, so much for our separation with neighbour from the north. Happy 41th Anniversary!!!

3)Blog's Anniversary
Yes, this blog was born in 2004 after i graduated from NTU. It is her 2th anniversary. ha... I would look at my previous entries occasionally to see what had happened over the last 2 years. Life has been tough but i managed to overcome most of the odds. I will continue to write and log down my memories here unless someone banned the entire blog sphere. Happy birthday!!!

Catching Up

Time for some updates. Finally got an off day after working over the weekend. I am quite used to it now. Sunday is always long working hours for me. Was so tired when i reached home. Felt asleep at the count of 5! ha...

Met up Ying and Ken this evening. Been a very long time since the three of us get together. Too bad hao din come. He was having his first day in school for his masters. Wha... Post graduate degree. Good for him. If he was present, it will be the first time in more than 6 months that the four of us met. ha...

I think, at least for ken and me, we are too busy at work. Little time left for socializing with friends. I remembered during the last gathering, my teacher came to me and said, "oh, surprise to see you today". Well, i guess they have to get used to it.

Anyway, we had a belated birthday celebration for ying. Treated him to a sumptuous dinner at The Village. Coincidentally, met a colleague. Aiyoh, really "si hai jie xiong di", whahahaha.... one of my poly classmates used to say. Singapore is small, you are bound to meet someone anywhere, anytime. Never attempt to be funny. whahaha...

Sometimes, i really miss the days when we used to hang out very often. From East Coast to Suntec to UOB plaza. Things have changed when we move on with our life. Ken always said, look at the teenagers, they are very close friends. Play soccer, basketball etc, 10 years down the road, will that be the case?

Well, at least for that particular moment they have really enjoyed themselves. I admit i love meeting friends too, we can talk anything under the sky. We used to hang ard many places, just for TALKS ONLY. cant believe it. After so many years, we can still have so many topics to share. wahahaha... I think its me. ha....

Time to sleep. Busy week ahead. argh... No holiday for me during National Day. Boo.. Have to wait till sat for my next off day. Shall tolerate and wait till fri....

Inspirational Tots

Been coughing like mad for the last couple of hours. Took lozenges to ease my throat a little. Mum diagnosed it as "cold cough". During the day, it was not that bad, but when night falls, the condition took a turn. Cant talk much now as it will irritate my throat. Fortunately, i dun need to talk when i blog.

Once again, i was reading the blog of some stranger. This blogger has been trying hard to look for his love ones. He has been ditched by some silly bitch. Picking himself up, he is trying to search for a new one. He had great plans, but deep in the heart, he feels lonely.

While reading through, i felt very fortunate. It sets me thinking how different life will be if i am still single. Of course, we have close friends. But seriously, no one will be as attentive as the one you love. This is the line between close friend and your partner. Who would bother to send sms or even listen to your grumble no matter how tired you are from work?

No matter guys or gals, little tots do make a difference. The blogger has been yearning for one, but somehow it din work. It is always good to be in love. Though some may disagree, but as long as one keeps it simple, always put in the shoes of the other party. I guess it will work.

Anyway, i am off to bed. Inspirational blog. ha... miss her...