Peaceful

I did not enjoy as much as i did on previous sat. In the past, i used to go out for movies, club, supper or meeting up friends. Life have changed when my new job started. I had a rough day. Everything just went wrong. First it was over work matters. Next, miss the last bus and could not get any cab in the vicinity. Can u imagine get stranded in the middle of no where in Thomson Rd with Mac Reservoir behind? Been waiting for some 20 mins b4 i hailed a cab. Then realise i dun have money left. Called home to have my bro on standby. If not, u will see me in the newly open police centre @ SK.

Once the storm went pass, everything was pretty smooth today. Suddenly feel peace. Lilian and Qiang were right. Time will heal. And i look fwd. When u r over the ebbs, u see the peak. I have been telling myself everyday to tolerate watever happen. Sometime, i could not help but keep complaining. I need a place to breathe. Anyway, a month has almost pass. I will be getting a few days off subsequently. Can catch up with my friends and re-think wat i want.

The Truth

Grumbling and mumbling since the day i started my new work. Wat's wrong? I read my previous postings and realise that i kept complaining abt many things over the last 3 weeks. Grumpy old man to be. After thinking thru, i was enlightened. This is the truth,

"Whatever u do, be it right or wrong, it will not please someone, as long as that someone feels disgusted with you. "

I told myself not to bothered by all the nonsence treatment i received. No matter how hard i try, right or wrong, the result is the same. For a simple reason, i am hindering someone's performance. Unless u are more intelligent, more senior, the person might carry your balls. (Taiwan FM 2004) It's true. I was initially taken aback by the behaviour of some pple. The picture is getting clearer now.

Well well, i felt so much peaceful when i know the truth. Anyway, i am not going to stay long, do watever they like and i will leave once i am ready. I always said, if u r gay or lesbian, then continue watever u like. If u r married with kids, ur kids will get the same treatment sooner or later. Good luck to them! Let them feel wat it will be, the regretful parents will then sobbed till no tomolo.

Profit Making Day

After working hard for so many days, thru stress, anxiety and lost, i finally got my first pay. Wat a relieve when i saw the amount injected into my account. Finally!!! It somehow motivates me a bit to push myself harder. Some of my friends might have heard of my endless grumbling. If not for Ken and jun, i think my stress level will be so much higher, with more pimples poping out.

Anyway, it was enjoyable today. For a simple reason, i met my ex-colleague, whom we become colleagues again. Yeah! We were so excited and chatted for 10mins. I really miss the good old days. We updated each other and realised that we lost contact for almost 4 years. Ha.... She looks the same. Time din take away her youthful looks. I guess we will have more time to see each other!!!

A Day for myself

Day after day. No quality time spent for myself. I will either be working or meeting up friends and love one. I have been asking myself the same qn over and over again. How long can i put up with this kind of arrangement? Yes, i work irregular hours. Work till late is fine but even my entire wkend gone. I am still coping with the changes that is going on. I come home late, no time to tok to pple, only to drag the half asleep mum, to tell her wat happened at work.

Then i have got no time to show my concern to my friends and even jun. Her family was having some problem and i could not lend her my listening ear. When i returned home, she is either almost on bed or i am grilled till too tired to tok. Working is definitely not a child game or schooling matter. In school, u can skip class but u can never escape from work. Then the politics. That is some big issue that i am still trying to overcome. Everyday i pray. Pray for smoothness in the job. Buddha Bless!

Still Struggling

I was finding time to do some blogging. The good old days were gone. I used to blog during office hours but not able to do it now. Pple are walking ard, staring at u. Some may even take a peep or stand behind u quietly. I could not do anything but to work only. When i reached home every night, i am already so tired. I would fall asleep while watching tv. This is life, something that is beyond my control. In this line, we dun have weekends. I missed those days when i could hang out during wkends with friends and my nephew. He is beside me asking me to bring him out. I would love to but no luck. I will be stuck in the office later.

Meeting demanding boss is not easy. It is fine to be demanding. I can accept that. When someone get demanding, his/her tone gets tough. I was pretty taken aback by the way they explained things to us. My colleague and i was like er... We were pretty scare when we approached the person. I was wondering if his son/daughter were to be treated that way in school or work, boss will confirm create a big hooha. When can we tell? Time will.

Fitting into new culture

I have finally gone thru the intial training period. As time goes, i am more familiar with the system in the computer. Although i met some bad encounterment, it was generally fine over here. The seniors r beginning to accept us. I am glad when we make mistakes, they pointed out and improved on it. That is what i hope to learn. I mean, even if they scold, they should at least point out where it went wrong and how we could improve on it. Singaporeans have the bad habit of finger pointing but unable to tell u what went wrong.

Another new colleague came today. Din have the time to speak to her. Cos i am equally new and needs to brush up on my writing skills. Was busy updating, finding quality footages. I guess will have to wait till wed dinner time b4 we really have the time to chat. My other counterpart is funny. Thanks to her jokes that made our day. If not, the dept will be so boring. When she cracks jokes, it really improve my mood as well as others!

Well Spent Day

It was my off day yesterday. Did many things within the last 24 hours. Got up in the morning to see the sun smiling at me. ha... So packed my bag and went to the nearest swimming pool for a tan. Mr Sun was fantastic. I had a great time listening to music and tanning by the pool side. In the evening, i headed to FF again in an attempt not to waste my money. Did a few bench press, crunches and running. Felt rejuvenated after the exercise. I need that cos it somehow relieve my stress from work.

At night, i nearly split into 2. Met up Gavin and gang for dinner at Sakae Sushi. Abt 5 of my NTU schoolmates turned up. Everyone is working and we seldom have this oppt to meet for dinner. Looks like xuan is having a good time on her job. The rest r still the same. Complaining abt their jobs. ha... I joined in too. Then halfway, rush to meet ken. He was alone walking in orchard rd. I asked him to join me but he kindly rejected. When i finished my dinner, i left quickly. He was feeling bored for no reason. I suspect it could be the weather, the dishonoured voucher I-Chq issue or xxyy? Went to MU a while, listen to the songs, Ken felt better after listening to the live band performance. I had my supper before going home. Wat a day! I am now preparing for work again. No more off for the next 3 days.

Too Busy

Yar. Life is so different after u begin working. Starting work late caused me to arrive home late. I work after 2pm and reach home after 12am. It has become a routine for me. Sometimes, i really ponder how long i can stay in this kind of environment. I tot the job was supposed to be like my previous job - on shift. Till i came, i realise it was not. So wat to do? It's a new job for me and i got to admit that i dun have much experience in this area.

I am very tired when i reached home. I wanted to update my blog but was too lazy even to switch on my computer. Supper has become wat i looked fwd to after work. The job is pretty interesting and i have got lots of things to learn. Another thing that i look fwd to is pay day. ha... I guess i will become very motivated when i got my first pay. Oh yes, since i dun have much off days during my wkends, i learnt to cherish my wkends off more. My off days are equally precious cos i cant meet up friends at nite due to the nature of my job. Unless they want to meet me after 12am where most places are closed except for pubs and discos. Fortunately, i am off tomolo. Yipee!!! Can relax a bit and do wat i like to do!!!!

Hands on Learning

It is never easy to start all over again. My previous experience was not sufficient. I get to learn more things today. Need to be bold, daring and aggressive. I learned more abt post editing. The editors regardless of news editor or video editor are indeed skilled and well trained. To be able to work under them is an eye opener for me. Of course, i saw a few familiar faces who had appeared on TV many times. And now, i have become their colleagues.

Anyway, the herding effect here is still strong. I am glad i have the habit of bringing my dinner or lunch during meal times. Once again, no one took orders from me. Oh, wat a shame! I din make a fool of myself by asking them to buy for me. I guess most big organisations like these have serious H2H problems. Did u remember wat Fann said? Fann(1998) stated that Zoe and her were colleagues, not friends. Wow, wat a harsh comment. I began to see a clearer picture of wat she meant. In any cases, i dun give a DAMN! I am only concern on my job and hope to improve my skills as time progresses.

Herding Effect

Yes. As long as u r new to a company, young pple like us always face the problem of herding effect. I dun understand why senior staff like to behave that way. Come on, they have kids and i am sure they will not want their kids to be treated that way. The old click will stick together, forgetting new pple like us. They might have tot that we are here to challenge their rice bowl. Anyway, i am quite immune to it. Y? Thanks to the internship that i went thru. They really put me to test.

I always remember the time when i got "bullied" by this gang of veteran at one of Singapore's largest accounting firm. I was only 17-18 when i was somehow ill treated. Eversince that trauma, i began to realise reality is harsh. Another new colleague of mine was so disappointed. When i look at her, she felt terrible. I try to comfort her a bit. She agreed that newcomers always face the same problem. It is a vicious cycle. We got no choice but to hang on there. The fortunate thing is we still have a few kind souls who will help us. Besides, both of us can still count on each other. Another new colleague will be coming in soon. I guess he/she will have some hard time too.

New work on a New Year

I was so tired and busy after each day at work. Despite i din really do many things, somehow u just get tired after bumming ard. I began to realise that the work is pretty stressful compare to previous job. It is twice or thrice stressful cos there is not only the script that u need to work on but the graphics, timing etc. I tot it would be easy but as a non mass comm student, i will have to struggle a bit. The good news is when u r more experience, things will be easier.

Besides, the working hour is not as wonderful as i tot. I tot we were supposed to rotate to do different shift. NO. I am now permanently stuck at 2pm. Need to work till 11pm which also means no life for me. No time to go out wif gf, friends, gym, shopping. My hands were itchy, i should have gone over to radio. At least, i know my stuff better, on rotating shift and i can plan my time more wisely. Wat to do? no wonder my friend said i have fallen into another sinking ship. For now, i have to continue learning. I am giving myself sometime to learn. Anyway, i am paid to learn. So, no harm. ha.... We shall see

ORD loh!

Wat an embarrasing statement to make! Yes, it is supposed to be a happy occasion for me but it took almost 5.5 years to happen. It is so stressful if u start to think back. I mean most pple finish their NS after 2.5 years. However, I took longer than the others cos i disrupted. Secondly, i was a poly student, that further delayed my time to finish NS. People ORD when they turn 21. I ORD when i almost turn 26. Aiyoh, so paiseh... I look so old as an NSF in the unit.

Anyway, my colleagues congratulated me on my last day in SR. They clapped furiously when i flashed my pink ic to them. That type of feeling was so fantastic. My dept colleague treated me to lunch, some sent me best wishes. They are kind pple. I really enjoyed my stay over at SR. These pple made a difference in my life. If u r reading my blog, i do hope we will always keep in touch.

I read news for the last time @ SR. To quote wat helen chong said b4 she read the last channel u news, "Mediaworks will go into history after tonight". I would like to repeat again, "KW @ SR will go into history after 1pm". I had mixed feelings after 1pm. Happy yet sad to leave. I can fully understand how Yanqing and Helen felt when they left the station. I took a glance again b4 i stepped out of the building. Everything over here is history. I am going to rewrite a new story tomolo. I will be reporting to my new employer. Thank you SR for all the fun and love u have given me. Take care and may your rating soared tremendously!!!

Farewell Party

Thanks to my fellow colleagues who organised a farewell party for me. It was so "zhen qing liu lu". Everyone started pouring about how they felt at the station. The mood was good. No tears but fond memories. I had a hard time digesting while on my way home. Kept thinking abt what happen over the last 28 months.I remembered coming to SR on Aug 1999. That was the time when many seniors were still ard.

First Generation
Full timers: Camie, Angie, Shima Roy, Lionel, Raj, Ong Thiam Seng, Mr Soh, Angeline.
NSF: James, Melvin and Tim.

Second Generation
Full timers: Lionel, Andy Lu, Vivian, Cheryl, Darren, Puni, CK, Siew Hoon, Eugene
NSF: James, Melvin, Tim and Ben

Third Generation
Full Timers: Lionel, Terrance, Terry (senior), Vivian, Yvonne, CK
NSF: Ben, Taylor, Kurt, Jonathan, Peter

I missed the good old days. We used to have long breaks. Were on very good terms with other NSFs such as James and Melvin. Always go home together with James. I still remember there was once when we both bought the same shorts for a discount. ha... We always bitch ard in the canteen. hee... Then i took a break and left the place for 3 years. When i came back, everything seems to have changed. However, some remains.

Final Generation
Full Timers: Terrance, Yancy, Fei, Ian, Kevin, Darren, Yvonne, Joey, Eugene
NSF: Aaron, Justin

Going thru the names was not easy. I might have forgotten some. As far as i am concerned, at least 95% of the names are here. Like i say, people change and culture change. I have seen so many pple coming and leaving. It is kind of sad when pple leave. Well, i may be meeting some of my ex-colleagues at the other side. ha... In other words, ex-colleagues turn colleague again. I really treasured all my days at SR except for ahem... I guess my colleagues will know when they read this. Take care everyone!!! All the Best!!!

Final Countdown

Another countdown again? Yeah, mine. Countdown to the last day of work. Anyway, it will be a new working week for everyone tomorrow. And schools will reopen too. Welcoming students back to the school, i guess teachers are having hard time again. ha... However, it will be different for me. No more schooling but the second last day from work. Yeah! I am finally leaving the place for good. To be exact, i stayed in the firm for 28 months with a 3 year break in between. It seems tat my big boss is unhappy abt me leaving. Well, no appreciation lunch was organised for me this time.

More than 3 years ago, when i first left, my manager organised a farewell party for me. Ordered food and invited many pple to attend. Boy, that was glam. I think he did appreciate all my contributions. Now, things have changed. The super big boss felt pissed cos i chose not to stay with the firm. Yar right, paying me peanuts and wish me to stay.

Thanks to my department colleagues who made my days happier. They will be having a mini farewell pary for me. Was really touched by wat they have done. It is the hearts that count. Wat i really miss in SR is always the people. It was the same 3 years ago. Now again. Looking fwd to this evening celebration. A final gathering to all my colleagues over the last 6 months!!!

2005 New Day of the Year

Yes, gone are 2004! We are finally into a brand new year. Erase the ugly records and start all over again. Was at a countdown party with many pple last night. There were Ken, Qiang, Meifang and Lijun. Whoo... The first time i celebrated new year with my the other half. Pretty fortunate considering what happen over the last few days. Before that, we were munching away at Yoshinoya with Liwen and her bf David. Very compatible. I give her my blessings right from my heart. We had great fun dancing, shouting, chanting, bitching last evening. It is nice to spent such an evening with your loves one.

This morning was a cool and breezy one. Woke up still reminiscing wat happened last nite. Sweet memories. Turned on the TV immediately. And yes, Mediacorp's logo has been imprinted on Channel U. Gone were the days of Mediaworks. Saw the news from Channel U for the last time. Wang Yanqing could not stop her tears. She was almost crying while reading her last bulletin. Channel U news featured many of their reporters, news team and reports for the last time.

Tonight, we shall see a brand new team from Mediacorp. First, Liang Ni and Serene Loo. Then the new timings. Instead of looking back, maybe we should look forward. I am sure Mediacorp will do a good job like Mediaworks. Anyway, things will be different from this year. Let's look forward!!!