Nite Life in Singapore

Yeah! It is weekend. Was planning an outing later tonite with ken after work. It is really time my friends get accustomed to my unusual working hours. Will leave workplace after 1130pm. Since Singapore's nitelife is not as vibrant as her friendly neighhours, we are restricted by the activities here. If not, i would have flown to BKK, HK to really enjoy wat they call nitelife. Over here, it is so deserted after 10pm. Well, maybe we are slightly better than European countries.

Miss the nitelife in Bkk, with places to go even after 12am. Some shops close as late as 2am. If you want food, no problem, their dirty roadside store is always there for us. ha... I doubt not many pple would appreciate except me. Even places like KL or Penang have fantastic roadside hawkers too. So wat can we do in Singapore? "Chiong" or movies or KTV. Yeah rite. Very restrictive. Have not finalise wat to do yet. May end up doing nothing and go home. I am ok since it is my rest day tomolo!!!

Weekend

Most office dwellers will be happy by this time cos it's their break again. For me, no difference. I got to work, being "kao pei" or sudden attack. However, i still have a little consolation. I will be having an off day on Sunday. Whoo... Finally.... Can get to meet my little nephew, enjoy the sunday break or probably head to town. I will just have to bear for another two days.

Jun was asking me whether i will be off on my birthday. Ha... I am not sure and skeptical. If i am seasoned enough, I should be prepared for no off or on standby. This work has really torn my life apart. I am unable to plan wat i want to do over the next few weeks. Unlike in the past, i still have some time to react should something crops up. My life now lies with my boss. ha.... If time could revert, i would not have land myself in this mess. I will have to move on.

Rest again!

Finally get to rest after working so hard over the last four days. Made a minor error yesterday. My big boss found out and so did our fellow singaporeans. Ha... Have been striving very hard not to make typo error and yet i did it. Felt very discouraged for tat moment. Well, wat could i say. I console myself by learning from mistakes. Picked myself up and continue for another day.

Today was so much better. Got back all my confidence to work again. It might be due to my off day. hee... so can relaz relaz... Shall be going for my steam bath tomolo. Then can get to see jun... that will motivate me further. Oh yes, i have been listening to Erasure's song after my visit to Devil's bar band. Fantastic song.... and destress me a lot....

A little Respect

Was listening to this song by Erasure when i realised there is this thing call "Respect". As u grow older, u aspired to be respected. On the other hand, u lose ur respect to your junior. Their ego must have evolved over the years. Strange, they were once young. I find that people here do not respect one another. They like to shout and make unreasonable calls whenever they like. I have said many times that everyone is here to make a living. We can have a better environment by creating a harmonious mood. It seems tat the old forgies are unable to do it. Always stuck in the world of their own. They will deserve our respect when they are ahem....

Anyway, was out wif gavin and ed to supper at Newton. Finally got to sit in a brand new car. ha... It has been a very long time since the three of us went out together. One is always out at sea, the other went missing after flying to Thai. Now he is back, we can have a reunion. Really relaxing particularly after working so hard. I need a break. Shall take a little rest now before proceeding to work...

Disagreement

More and more obstacles are coming along the way. Had a tough time wif my colleague. All becos of work AGAIN. I have been tolerating for a very long time. I just somehow lost control and raised my voice against those "senior citizen". I got to admit i did commit some mistakes but i was accused of doing something that i did not. After all the commotion, i took a break from work, walked out of the building to cool myself. Everything return to normal of the dinner break.

According to reliable sources, nothing much was mentioned during the dinner break. (cos i was not at the table) But i dare not gurantee there will not be a sequeal. I am prepared for something unexpect to occur. Over here, life is like a time bomb. We never know when it will explode the next time. There is always ripple effect at the end. So i am expecting something. It is really not easy to work in a dynamic environment. I miss the good old days when i really make close friends during my jobs.... oh... those were the days.....

Sweet Valentine

It is the time of the year again. Although it is the sixth day of Lunar New Year, many pple will never forget abt this special day. Was out with jun to celebrate our third V day. Quite a sweet moment for me. Able to forget everything at work and spent some quality time together. Romance was in the air. U could see couples holding flowers, soft toys or anything that their hands can hold. I felt very xingfu at tat moment. I really need to thank jun for all the support during this crucial period. Thanks babe!

Met up with some NTU friends on sunday. Been a very long time since we met. Everyone is busy with their work. Our dear chinyin is having a challenging time with the kids. I guess to be a teacher is not easy. I do agree that each child has different characteristics. Imagine she has to deal with 39 different students. Tough job. Our thai king is back. Think he had enough of all the trauma he went thru over there. I wonder what job he will take up after tat. Such informal gathering was fantastic. Actually, we are going thru the same process. I need to take a step back and rethink again. Life is not like a bed of roses. Endurance and perserverance is the key to success!!!

Rooster or Chicken?

Well well. Found this interesting topic when i saw the news. Over here in Singapore, we like to call it the year of rooster. InTaiwan, they called it the year of chicken. Which is a better name? I would choose rooster. Sounds classy and better. Chicken sounds very ordinary. It is like wat we eat daily ie KFC, Chicken rice. I dun hear pple saying let's go and eat rooster. ha....

Anyway, it was my first day of work after ushering into the new year. Everything was good except for some "irritating" pple. Always expect u to know while they dun teach. Wat a good way to learn. Aiyah, i doubt this will do good to their offspring. They forget abt something call retribution. It will bestow on them or their kids sooner or later. Better watch out!

Bye Bye Monkey

It is only a few hours away from the year of rooster. But i cant help but feel moody. The uncertainty, the sudden lost in direction, the evil sight of pple keep running in my mind. I told myself not to think abt it. And i am trying. Thanks to everyone who lend a listening ear. I am trying to voice my unhappiness thru this little channel. I cannot do it openly as i may face another round of condemnation, stabbing or even worse. Like a boat sailing in the open sea, i really dunno wat to do next.

I heard over the radio that "If you cannot change reality, then change ur mindset." It is easier said than done. I would like to change but always face with unlimited obstacles. Oh well, i can only hope for a better tomolo. It is the a brand new year. Lilian, i know u r facing some unprecedented challenge in ur life. Me too. Though lost, we still have to stay focus. If we r determined, there are no difficult tasks. Ha... Very easy to say!!! K lar, let's wish for a prosperous and good future ahead!!! HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

Lost?!

Lilian is right. I am pretty lost now. I am trying to figure out a way to walk out of this darkest. We are working for the sake of money. No doubts abt that. However, if the working environment is better, it makes life much easier. There are just pple who seems to get uncomfortable when u start to settle in. Everyone will feel lost in a certain point in life. That is y i keep grumbling, procrastinating abt anything at work.

I remember my ex colleague who said i have made a wrong decision in life. I sort of agree. Life is like a gamble, sometime u win, sometime u lose. I have to admit. I hope to emerge stronger after all these. I am still breathing, in search for greener pasture. Anyway, CNY is round the corner. I will be taking a short break before moving on. May everything turn out smoothly there after.

1 Month Old

No doubt Mediaworks have shut down her operations from 1 Jan and file for court order to wind up. Like Mediacorp's Channel U, I have been with the company for a month. I consider that as an achievement since i blunder and went thru all kinds of shit over this period. Try recalling back, I ORD exactly a month ago. Back then, it was a happy and glorious moment in my life. A month later, it was the darkest and the lowest point in my life. Why the big change?

Thanks to my employer. Over here, there is nothing wrong with the management (probably there is, but it is just that i din encounter for myself) The culture is not too friendly. Some r nice pple while others can be as harsh as ur imagnation can go. Being scolded is part and parcel of life. Ok, every newbie bound to get scolded. There is not the end, next to come is stabbing, laughing and worse still critising even more often for the sake of it. I mean it is hard to stop pple from doing this. For the sake of money, i am no different from a dog. How happy can i be? I hope to make some achievement. There r some who will throw an obstacle in front of you to make sure u make a detour. Sounds challenging? Wat can a little fry like me do? Sigh....

Stand by

Yes. This is not the usual army standby mode. But my work requirement. Yes, i understand that we can be activated anytime when there is a need. But the thing is sometime i have already planned my stuff ahead. I got stuck and do not know how to react. But when comes to work, i have to give in no matter wat. Afterall, being a newbie is not easy.

I got a shock when i see a last min call from office. I was busy working out when my superior gave a call. When i returned call, no body picks up. I called my boss hp, sms, no reply. Eventually, i checked with a colleague and found out tat it was an activation. I miss my boss call, so she called another colleague. She was asked to cancel her leave and return to work. Hee. Although I managed to escape, there is still a fear in me. Cos i din pick up her call. ha... but i have a reason. I pray hard that there will be no more activation later today. PRAY PRAY!!!