Reality Show Again!

After superstar, here comes the channel 8 next idol. I think pple are getting crazy over choosing the star for tomolo. That is probably the latest trend and everyone is going gaga over it. How long will this continue? Well, it depends. However, the thirst to become an idol is there, on the other hand the demand to watch such program is also there. Win win situation.

By the way, i saw Superstar finalists Derrick Ho and Weicong this evening. Boy, they are really in army. hahaha.... head shave till botak. Poor derick was even in his number 4. "Training to be a soldier, fight for our land". Weicong was quick and changed into civilian clothings. He was witty to use a bandanna to cover his head. Eventually, the superstar heat is over and time to move on to Channel 8 next idol!

For one, i am a fan of reality program. The Amazing Rack is finally back!!! Sad to say, it's the family edition and there are lots of restriction. Families are running like mad within US. Pple watch amazing race because contestants get to travel to different parts of the world. To make them run in their home country seem to defy the orignality of the game. I think they can at least get to travel to neighbouring countries like Canada or Mexico.

By the way, its time for me to take a 3 day break!!! Finally! I deserved it!!! What have i planned to do? ha... I know i will be having a steamboat later today. Hee... Sit back and have a home cook meal at home. I am very simple.

Toughest Survive

Life isnt really a bed of roses. While going thru some of my past entries, i realised i have been complaining, grumbling and ranting all this time. That also mean i have been very very unhappy. There were so many negative entries. God!

There were things that u wished it din bother you. However, it kept haunting you so much that u rather turn deaf and handicap. Even simple thing that u do is being critised. Like wat Ken said, this is the worst scenario he could ever thought of. And they all happened!!! I endured and tolerated but i am a human after all. I am not sure when the explosion will occur.

I know i have been repeating over many entries. I could not help it cos this is the only little space that i can vent some of my frustration on... I told my mum, if ever i was a girl, i would have cried almost every night. Will i ever turn depression? As far as i am concern, i have people who still show their care to me. I also have a holiday to look forward. So still not too bad... Well, my mum for the first time felt very sorry for me.

Mum: Son, if you are really unhappy, leave your job...
Me: ...
Mum: It has been hard on you.

I was very touched when she said that to me. Previously, she felt i was unable to withstand hardship from work. I have been updating her what happened at work. She was surprised that things turned out so negatively. It's true. I did not exaggerate.

I got this from a friend. We were in the same ship.

I know what are my abilities, and what I can be confident of doing. Yet, doubts had been creeping into me lately.

although those are the things which I had known all along, and I can't help but seriously consider.

I thought I could overcome it, but I couldn't. How do you do it? I don't used to be like that, have I fallen in real deep this time round?

How bad can things turn out? I am not sure. There are pple in this world that is probably going thru the same phase as me. Perhaps theirs is a different situation. In the mean time, i only hope for the best. Holiday is definitely the best remedy for me.

Ah Boy Haircut

Back at home lazing ard in the afternoon. Went for a haircut in the morning. Now, looking like a JC student or perhaps a NS personnel. It was a long time since i shortened my hair. I asked my sis if i looked "ah boy", she din hesitate to give a "Yes" reply. Argh.... But i definitely look younger with short hair. ha... Ah boy... I hope they will check my IC tonite when i go Dbl O!!!!

Went thru a few blogs of my friends. Wow... Michelle had a great time in US. I would love to go for a summer exchange program or something like that if i had the chance. Too bad, my time is always so tight and i cannot afford to do so. After graduation, i returned to my unit to finish off my National Service. Then, it was time to start work. Aiyoh, really no time....

The pictures were beautifully taken. I enjoyed flying ard, travelling from Chicago to Las Vegas to NYC. OMG! It is like travelling till no body business. However, that is going to be VERY EXP! In the meantime, i will save up. No car, no insurance, no extraordinary expenses. ha... Unless i found some rich lady or sugar mummy to sponsor me.... whahaha... Based on my looks, i think they will give me a free trip to Toa Payoh Lorong 7! hahaha.... Oh, if anyone loves donation, feel free to contribute to my Overseas Trip Fund, i can give u my account... Let me know ya!

Be with Me

It has been a few days since "that" thing happened. Well, i am feeling better but gets upset whenever i think of it. After all, it was not meant to happen. Too bad. On a lighter note, did a few things today. They are things that i missed over the last 4-5 years. Although din achieved much, it was pretty satisfying.

Oh dear, that means i missed my SR days again. Went over to Radio side this evening to catch a glimpse of Superstar rehearsal. Not bad! Saw my favourite "Black Pearl"! Cool leh. When i walked pass the studios, it reminded me of the happy days i spent when i did my radio gigs. Haiz.... Wat to do? I can only suck my thumbs now while watching others performing.

Movie "Be with Me" was quite a touching story. I am very impressed by Director Eric Khoo who could tell a story with less than an A4 page script! Awesome! I like the way he put the love message across the scene. Not the mushy type, but thru little actions and tots. Blind lady Theresa is even inpiring. She touched the lives of many. Brave lady!

I guess love is not abt "dear this dear that". It is more of a long term commitment and concern that you show to your partner. Be true to yourself and you will live longer and happier!

Unforgiveable

Haiz... Pathetic... When u are down at your luck, it really sucks. I have been praying day in day out for a better day. Somehow, it doesnt work. Congrats to the "ambushers" for their successful launch. They managed to make it this time. Poor me have nothing to say. Cos i was wrong in the first place. Haiz....

Not sure wat to do now. I lost faith in things that i do. I tried my best to put up a brave front. But no, i feel very weak at this moment. This is all retribution. I should be enjoying a good time over at the other side. I failed them and now i failed myself. It is so unbelieveable.

Is that the way life should move on? I hear pple telling me that wherever u go, it will be the same. Is this really true? Or it's just a hypothetical scenario? I am not too sure. I wanted to move on, however, i got stuck again. And this time, i dare not even make a step forward. Nothing! It's Enough!

Perfect Day?!

Alright... A day well spent. Sun was good, thankfully, had a good tan. As mentioned yesterday, my plan was fully executed. Great great great! Went esplanade this evening too and saw a huge crowd turnout. Then realised, it was Mooncake Festival. Everyone seems to be on a good mood. Me too! ;)

Everything was perfect except a pair of you-wont-want-to-see-couple smooching and frenching. OMG! Nearly fainted when i happen to see the face of you-wont-want-to-see-couple. Excuse me, the place does not belong to you. Not that i am against this kind of behaviour but the looks of them turn me off TOTALLY.

I cannot believe it. Happily presenting it to everyone for at least 10 mins? Arent their mouth tired? Or they are just too shiok that they forget abt everything? Jialat lar... Obstructing scenery.... But at least they are REAL couples. ha... Know wat i mean?

It is so much better than watching a pair of lesbian or gay doing it... Not forgetting abt the transexual who french this guy at Double O.... Eek..... I was so shocked that i stood speechless on the dancefloor for 3 mins!!! ha.... More and more people getting fetish. I wonder if that has to do with work or stress.

Time Not Enough

After a week of torture, i am finally taking a 2 day break from work. Whoo..... Feel so happy. Been very busy over the last few days. Sometime, i really feel that 24 hour is insufficient. I have got so many things to accomplish but always run out of time.

I intend to do lots of things tom. First to the pool if the weather in the morning is as good as today. Then to FF to work on my body (dun want to waste money, so exp!) After that, i will need to collect my air ticket from the travel agent. I will also be meeting up Jun. See, 1 day gone. If there are more than 24 hours a day during my off days, it will be perfect. ha.....

Saw Sugi, one of the Superstar contestant at reception this afternoon. I am surprise many little girls like him a lot. The moment he stepped out of the taxi, some students came talking to him. Anyway, the superstar fever is over. That also means no more news abt Champion, Kelvin anymore. Media field is so realistic.

Alright, time to sleep. Need to be bright and fresh in the morning to carry out my plans....

Piece of Shit

Whenever i think things are going to be alright, it just turn otherwise. For some stupid reason, i landed in trouble again at work. Thanks to the conflicting instructions given. For god sake, can someone tell me who is rite or wrong? I have been told to make decisions based on my heart.

I tried to but still on the verge of uncertainty. To play safe, i follow. However, when u follow, that does not mean u are right. Eventually, when there is a mistake, everyone starts pin- pointing at you. WTF! I have been trying very hard to get out of the vicious cycle. I get fustrated whenever poor instructions were given.

If i choose to defy, then something goes wrong, i get penalised. On the other hand, if i follow, something goes wrong, i also get penalised. Now, tell me wat to do. I am stuck like a piece of shit. The knot is forever there. 8 months into the job, nothing achieve except being attacked whenever there is an opportunity. Cruel!

Again and again. The stress level is unbearable. Work is already not easy, the evil environment doubled the effect. Too bad i cant go mambo on their last nite. At least it can destress me for tat moment. Well, i hope sleeping will make me better.

Credit Card Savvy

I am like any other Singaporeans aspire to own a credit card of my own. ha... Check thru the internet and found a few cards tailored for yappies like me. whahaha.... The discounts and other benefits look so tempting. However, thanks to MAS , i am unable to meet most of the stringent requirement. You know wat i mean.... :P

Well, my mum felt uncomfortable when i relate to her abt the use of credit card. She thinks that those are future money, why should we use it? Well, she is partly right and wrong. A card is useful particularly for pple like me who travels a lot. The downside is you might overspend unknowingly. I guess i am not too bad when comes to money management. So it is not tat bad...

Oh yes, came across a news today regarding 2 bloggers who have been charged with sedition for posting racist comments online. Afterall, when we blog, i think we should still exercise dicretion when we discuss issues relating to racial or religious harmony. It takes great effort to build this little nation.

Many pple dropped by your blog to take a peek. Why make comments tat could hurt the feelings of others? I mean u wont want to see pple attacking each other. The law protects us. It is for the benefit of everyone. Be a responsible adult and watch what u say!

Over the rainbow

Been a few days since i last updated my blog. Well, my poor daddy met with an accident and was hospitalised for 2 days. Fortunately, he was discharged earlier than expected due to his speedy recovery. Anyway, he is better now and thanks to pple who have shown their concern.

Life is still the same with work and work and more work. The Orchard station murder case was serious. I heard from a taxi driver that it was done by a maid. OMG! Sounded scary cos the head, hands and legs were found next to orchard mrt, then the other parts were found at reservoir. Another case of body being cut up... pple are getting ruthless....

Went to Mambo last wed for the last time before they closed for renovation. Very huge crowd turnout. I guess on the last Mambo ie 14 Sept, the crowd might be bigger. Met many friends there, Fiona, Annie, NJ, gym receptionist etc. ha... The mambo family had a small dispute. Saw some scuffle but not too sure what happened. Oh yes, i saw Orlinda Cho. Whahaha... I actually waved to her and she replied... friendly gal... Lost lots of weights though...

Life is hard... It's impt to take it easy. I have tried to relax whenever possible. I dun like the feeling of being stress even after work. If not, u will see a haggard guy very soon...

Immature relationship

Very tired after work today. Been rushing like mad to do many last min stuff. Fortunately, it went on smoothly. Thank god! But a colleague of mine suffered a different fate. Well, i think this is just part and parcel of working here. It seems tat everyone is eyeing for an attack anytime. Too scary!!!

On my way to work, i happen to eavesdrop a conversation between 2 students who stood behind me while waiting for the bus to come. ha... Funny conversation but VERY immature.

Girl: How's your gf?
Guy: She is useless. Find a guy to piss me off. Aiyah, can she grow up?
Girl: Oh, wat happen? So u broke off with her?
Guy: Dunno her lar. She found a guy who toyed her feelings. She knew it but went along.
Girl: wow! so bad ah?
Guy: Aiyah, she's young lar. She thinks by getting a guy, she can provoke me. Pls lar!

Then the bus came and i had to go off. That guy thinks he is very stylo which i felt like *bleah. His gf? I guess must be one of those shuay por lar. By the way, they are poly students whom i think it should be ard 18-19 years old. And i can safely confirm tat my analogy for relationship under 20 is entirely BULLSHIT is true afterall! ha... Opps! My hypothesis may be wrong. Correct me yar?

Of all the pple that i knew, those who are still in a relationship since they were 16-19, are less than even a percent. ha... Hearts are immature, many have the mentally that "pple have stead i must also have one". Alamak, when crisis evolved, none can withstand. Is that the way it should be? I dunno... Pple, prove me wrong!

Change of Plan

Destination for my holiday has changed. Ha.... Not visiting Da Chang Jin anymore, but to HK Disneyland. OMG! Wat a change! Why the sudden change? Thanks to the tour agent who cannot assure me a guranteed departure for the Korea trip. Other agents could not accomodate my leave, cos some trips are already FULL!

It's only early Sept yet the trips are fully booked. Cant imagine tat. Of course there were other agents but their itenery are not as impressive as the ones i liked. Decide to head to another place. After some discussion, Ken and i reached a win win situation, to go HK. Been to Shanghai and even Beijing, but never to HK. Excited and looking forward. I hope it will be a very SMOOTH one.

Met an old classmate of mine this afternoon at Paragon. It's Gerald. Ha... The tall guy who sat behind me in class during Sec 3 and 4. He din change much, still the same old Gerald that i know. But he said i changed a lot. He found me familiar but dare not confirm if it was me. So have i grown better or worse than before? :P

He reminded me of the time in our secondary school days where we used to exchange textbook with the class next door. Since both of us sat near to the door, it was extremely convenient for us to exchange textbook with some signal to the class next door. ha... During those days, books were heavy, lots of stuff to carry. To ease our burden, we share textbk with our "compatriots".

There's always books thrown at the doorstep and i will be collecting and distributing it. Sometime, i also borrowed from them... Those were the days, fortunately, we were never caught. Maybe the teachers closed their eyes.....

Yeah! It's Saturday!

Life is definitely good if you can stay at home to enjoy the peace and tranquility from work. Although i prefer work than study, it is difficult to remain stress free. hmm... Stress free may be a strong description, maybe i should use less stressful. I am always on my guard to ensure nothing goes wrong or if i have stepped on someone's tail. Otherwise.....

Wkend has been very precious to many working executive. Cos they work continously for 5 days before their break. For me, i cant afford such luxury. There is why i treasure my wkend off VERY much. Even if i dun go out but to sit at home, i also feel happy. Dunno why... Maybe i am a boy at home? *bleah

It's SAT!!!! Yeah! And that also mean party time. I always look forward to sat nite cos it is the only time that i club! Argh! STRESS RELIEVER! For a simple reason, not only i dance but also i enjoy looking at the "performance" put up by various regulars. Their actions never fail to make me laugh. Pretty entertaining. They dance very well.

Of course i must not forget abt those lovebirds. Whether straight, gay or bisexual, they behaviour seems to be like "eh wun lao pei" open this place. Then they will do things that couple do when the door is closed. hahahah.... sounded as if i am chi go beh....However, do you think they care? Doing it openly for everyone. So wat? I am very simple, if u dare to do it, i dare to watch it. hahahha.....

Shall see them tonight.... ha...

"You give me one good reason to leave me, I give you ten good reasons to stay.... "

Messed up

Things went haywire in office. My heart nearly came out of my mouth when things went wrong. Fortunately or not, i was not the person held accountable to the error. However, i felt a bit sympathetic to those involved. What to do? I guess we will have to improve on that area.

Anyway, it's President Nathan second term in office. Saw him swearing in for the second time, with PM Lee on his right, CJ Yong on his left. It looks almost the same, same like what happened 6 years ago. Back then, i was still in SR. Now, in its rival company. Aiyoh, world is so small. Think i am really stuck with this kind of job.

Then it's Superstar Final. Yes, we voted a blind man as our superstar. Good wor, Singaporeans are very kind loving pple. Well, i am not being sacarstic. Fans of Kelvin, pls do not get offended. I enjoy his singing too, just tat i find it strange to vote him as our star. I knew Kelvin would win, his votes has always been in the lead. Not much of a surprise, i mean, if he loses, then it is really shocking!

One more day to a nice wkend. Yeah. Will be enjoying my off days over the wkend. FINALLY! As u know, i seldom get a full wkend off. So, time to rock again!

Whisper in my goodbye, waiting for the train......

Unpredictable Surprise

I would love to go for a free and easy trip. Too bad i dun have the time to plan. Eventually, i have to let the tour agent do the job. I always dream of backpacking in places with friends who also enjoy travelling. Since i will be going with ken, i should forget abt backpacking....ha... I guess he wont be able to accept.

Peace at work. Thankfully! Probably the trip somehow brightened up my day. If not, boring day again. Receive calls, SMS the entire day to go Zouk. Why? It's Mambo nite!!! Zouk will be closing down in 2 wks time. There will be 2 more mambo nites before Zouk close for the day. Not to worry, it is only closed for renovation. I guess they will re-open in late October where i will be away in SEOUL. ha....

I turned down their offer one by one. Opps, i guess they were very disappointed. I din know my power could be so "influential". ha... Dun worry, they can still try out Dbl O on sat. Moreover, i need to work tomolo leh... Give uncle a little break. When i "jio" them, they were either busy or no time. When i am busy, it will be the other way round. Hai ya!

Oh yes, while on my way home, i met a teacher to be. My secondary school classmate, Huiyu. Been a long time since i last seen her. I noticed her when she alighted from the bus. We were in the same bus for goodness sake! Think we were too tired to notice each other. Thanks to technology, i alerted her with my HP. She also found out that we were in the same bus till she alighted and saw me onboard. ha... funny..... Life is so unpredictable and full of surprise!