Wednesday, December 30, 2009

End of Decade

Its time of the year again! We are at the end of 2009 and moving to a new decade. What have you achieve this year? I would say the year started quite turbulently but slowly ease out due to improved economic conditions. I remembered when the year started, I had fever. Oh man. That time I had celebration with a few others at a hotel. Nice fireworks to be ushered into the new year.

For me, I had achieved quite a bit at work. My first official overseas trip in late June. It was an unprecedental move for me. I have never work under such circumstances. It was a huge challenge. Working alone overseas arent easy. I tried and some big bosses had positive remarks which i felt was a relief. Then I was in charge on a few projects. Spent a lot of time working on it and it was of great satisfaction. The down side is less social time, but it seems not many pple understand my plight.

As for relation, it is stable. I prefer the status now. I dun care abt friends or pple who made all kind of comments. Its my relationship not yours. It is up to us to decide how we want to go. I never like to be pressured. This will only make me feel irritated. I still prefer slow and steady pace. I enjoy a comfortable mode. I am still enjoying it :)

As for family, I think things are changing. My dad has retired. I am working hard. My mum became a full time housewife again, thanks to little nephew. He is growing up fine. However, he is not one tat is easy to be taken care of. He needs 100% attention. hhahhaha.. I m still coping with these little boy. I just pray that when he grows up, he will be a fine man. Dun become a devil. hahaha....

As for new year, I hope better recognition in all aspects. I wanna do things better, improvement in all areas. Well, hopefully, to be a better person!!! Bye 2000-2009!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Holy Night

Time flies. Its Christmas again. I am surprised I am home at this holy hour. hahha... This is so unlike of me during Christmas eve. I remembered last year I was in KL, previous year at clubs or drinking somewhere. Haaa... I guess this is one of the many Christmas eve I ever stayed at home. I believe Orchard Road and clubs are filled with tons of revellers. hahaha.. Am I old or not into the mood of celebration during this festive period?

Well, its really time that I take a break from crowded places and spent a night all by myself. I need a short break badly to distance away from work. It has been the usual mad rush, however, I am quite satisfied with some of the project. Due to late notice from office, I am not able to attend Ed's wedding. If not, I will be flying off the next morning to Bangkok. hahhaa.. Damn. Missed the traditional Thai wedding.

Party will be coming up after silent night. hahaha... There will be one tomorrow. I heard there are plenty of good food, nice wine. Then on Saturday is the usual party. More drinks again. On Sunday is house warming, which I think there should be food again. hahhaa.. 3 days in a row. There was a mini party in office today. Had some nice red and white wine. There were also cakes, hams and turkeys. hahaha... Fabulous! Well, it does help to cheer up the mood.

After Christmas, its New Year! Time of the year again. 2009 also marks the end of a decade. hahah.. Merry Christmas to everyone! Cheers!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Pong Pong Day

This morning was raining heavily. There were no cabs at my place. Despite numerous call, booking was full. I proceeded to town centre trying for my luck. Wow. Fantastic long queue, all trying their luck to get a cab. I gave up and took a train to Serangoon. Gosh. It was a wrong move to alight. I was hoping I may get a cab there, but there were a few pple in front of me at the train station waiting for cab too.

While waiting, more cut queue and i decide to give up. I realise I will be late for my appointment planned at 10am. I was left with no choice but to take the train again to town for cab. My appointment is at this ulu place in Heng Mui Keng Terrance. Damn. I dun even know the place. When i reached Dhoby Ghaut PS, thank god. Taxi were queueing up for passengers. MY GOD! I complained to the driver and he kept quiet.

While on the train, i suddenly turn emotional after i recalled Jun said she cried on bus uncontrollably, feeling so alone. For me, it is more like why am i overwhelmed with so many uncontrolled things in my life. I feel kinda sad cos most of my friends have stable job, 9-5pm, time for family, time for friends, time for love, time for marriage. For me, its like fighting a war. I am faced with so many obstacles and yet no body understands at times.

Some said they are used to my life. I dun really agree. Deep in their heart, they would want to see something or even expect something. Here i am putting out fire, there they start another one. I guess this will never end. Many just probably stood and scratched their head. Why work so hard? Its for the future right?

The more i think in the train, I really felt lost all of a sudden. Why is this happening to me? Am I thinking too much or am i not able to meet expectation? I always have to calm myself down so as to regain momentum to do my job. It is really a love and hate affair. haiz. I guess no body can fully understand the type of 水深火热 situation I am in. Pple, you are too fortunate. You can have plenty of time to fulfill all your social and personal needs. For me, it is just, thank god, another day had passed. Pong pong pong! hahahahha.....

Monday, December 14, 2009

Sinking Ship

Sinking Ship- A new term thrown to me last night by jun. I began to feel it is easy to start a relationship but hard to maintain. When one is too busy and overwhelmed with things and try to seek for all sort of freedom, other may feel lack of togetherness or even drifting apart. Everyone is fighting for their future, one way or another, it may be different.

Some are very bright, scholars have path ready for them to walk. Others may want something simple and less stressful work. But that translate to lower income. There are also some who lead a normal job that always hv the free time to be each other. I have come to a conclusion, I always tot my situation is best understood by pple ard me but hey, I may be incorrect.

I ever tried to break away from the chain but was rejected several times. That got me piss and decide to work on new plans. While one is struggling hard, working as separate entity, you are blamed for neglecting feeling and end up in a sinking ship. hmmm... So all this while no one understand the nature of the job or am I just expecting pple to know? Well, every individual have their needs, we cant fulfill to everyone's satisfaction.

Besides striving to work hard, you tend to seek for all sorts of enjoyment. You may wanna get the other party involved but pple have different interest, we cant expect them to follow suit. I remember i used to lament a lot abt work and some irritating issues. hahaha... And one would start to feel "stop it"! hahahaha... Aiyah, I din know I am such a pest! hahahha

Of course, since 10 over years ago, I have a potential threat at home. There is nothing much I can do but to pray it wont explode. All these years I have been coping with these while continue to work hard for future. It is never easy. I should try my best to spare more tots for others while pursing other things. I hope i can become a WAN NENG guy, everything also can do it. hahaha.. Boleh la....

Saturday, December 05, 2009

Love is an Enjoyment

I was watching a local production when Berlinda Lee said "Love is an Enjoyment" while "Marriage is a commitment". I was instantaneously attracted to the show because I am amazed by the conversation. She said I prefer freedom and enjoyable life than to commit myself in heavy responsiblities. hahaha... Days of Modern Woman.

A guy asked, "Woman enter into a relationship with the goal of getting married eventually?" However Berlinda replied "These are thoughts of ancient woman, outdated! If you find love as something you indulge and enjoy, you wont want to commit in a marriage soon." Wow! I cant believe the script writer can actually made a lady make such comments! From what I know, most woman still prefer to get married, they rather commit in responsibilty than enjoy!!! I guess probably guys prefer the other way round!!

Haahhaha.. Why are pple behaving in a manner similar to ancient times? Is it because they are naturally born with it or is it because of education? Or are we shaped in a way which the government wants or determine preferably by what our seniors? I am just curious. We only accept whatever we were taught but never question? Why? Is it true that we are born losers cos we dun know how to challenge and always accept things as they are?

Time have changed and yet some are still living in ancient times. Of cos there are pro and cons to it. What I am concerned is why do we accept silently and do not retailate? Just because others are doing it does not equate you must be doing the same. In my nature of job, I am always asked to question and challenge pple's thought. I am getting used to it and till now, I always challenge pple with difficult questions. If everyone would do the same, I guess we will be more open and probably think out of the box. hahah.. However, some may feel, life is a mess! Dilemma.. hahhaah

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

2010 Marriage

I was reading some newspaper article about getting married on 10 October 2010 when i discovered it is a very negative year. According to report, every 10 couples who get married next year, 3 of them will end up divorce. Why is this so? Masters or shifu called it “孤年” or simply lonely year. It is not suitable for marriage as you will end up alone eventually.

There is another explanation call 桃花年。That means even if you get married, there will not be any form of blessing from heaven. Even married couple faces the danger of divorcing. 明年是太阳化入,太阳化科之年,形成天狗食月,也代表女尊男卑。意识就是婚姻内,女性当权。 Thus to overcome this, the female got to be older than the guy or a divorcee remarries or someone who had lost their partner remarries. Only these 3 categories are suitable for marriage.

As for those who opt for marriage on 10 October, well, masters and shifu termed that day as “凶日”meaning inauspicious day. In the lunar calendar, it is 九月初三。Many chinese believe that to get married on the month of 九月 is not very auspicious. It falls on 重阳节, where pple can revisit tombs of their deceased relatives. In other words, time to offer prayers to the dead again. However, if the couple do not have any religious belief, then it should be fine for them since it is an easy date to remember.

I am very surprised most of the masters share the same view. I thought that may be differing views. Most term it as inauspicious year. I guess the year 2010 is year of tiger. In term of zodiac, I felt that was considered a big zodiac. Not too good to make important decision. Just lie low and keep a low profile. For those getting married, just a note of cautious, be truthful and sincere to your partner and you should tie over the crisis.