Much Awaited Trip

Enjoyed a day of peace today.... Phew... think i really need that. Finally free to travel down to FF for a simple workout plus sauna. However, something disgusting happened at the sauna which i shall not elaborate. Too gross to say. I would appreciate if pple of that "kind" can respect others. Cos the place is not that PRIVATE.

Anyway, went to Chinatown later to scout for my new trip. hee... Was thinking of making a trip to Korea again this time in Autumn. Whoo.... Cool, nice weather, beautiful autumn scenery. Of course more importantly, i can make a visit to Da Chang Jin filming studio. Yeah! I had in mind to visit Jeju Island too. And yes, found one agency that met my expectation.

The price is steep abt $1500, inclusive of tips and airport tax. Ha... This package is so much different from wat others have to offer. Not the usual type. Staying in 5 star hotels, visit places that i have never been to. (I have been to Seoul 2 years ago) Looks interesting after scanning thru the itenery. Plus my personal expenses, think i have to fork out close to $2000.

I guess travelling is indeed an expensive hobby. That is why i can never take up driving, insurance and stuff. If not, who is going to sponsor for my trip? I dun have a rich daddy that can do that. I was initially procrastinating between Japan, Korea and Hong Kong. Since Ken is so keen to go Korea, plus after watching Da Chang Jin, i decide to go for a second time.

I smell Ginseng Chicken, Bibimbap, Kim Chi!!! Anyoh ha sey yoh! ha.... If everything finalise, i should be there soon....

Electric Dreams

Listening to good music really cool one's mind off. I particulary enjoy tuning in to retro late at night cos it brings memories. After all, it was once popular during those days. During the day, new songs make better playlist. I find that English songs are equally nice. When i was younger, i was an english song idiot. Cos none of their songs caught my attention. I was a die heart Mandarin song lover.

However, after hanging out at night spot. My impression of English songs have changed. I have stereo typed English songs as hardcore heavy metal for a very long time. Nah... Not true. There are songs with interesting lyrics. Erasure's "A Little Respect" was meaningful. "Together in Electric Dreams" by Human League was cool.

Talking abt oldies, i was turning to bed last night when i saw "Ah Lang Story" on TV. Yes, Xin Ah Lang Gu Shi, starred Fann Wong, Wan Zi Liang, Christopher Lee, Aileen Tan, Xie Shao Guang, Carole Lim etc. OMG! So cheesy show! Yet i continue watching. Y? Cos of the theme song "Bie Rang Qin Liang Nan" wah.....

I also saw some veteren actors such as Dai Peng and Liang Tian in the serial. Debuted more than 7 years ago, it has turned classic. Fann din changed much... still pretty and eye catchy. But her "ah lau" Chris Lee has matured. Anyway, i miss the theme song. I got high when i heard the song. In case, u forget, it was sung by Jeff Chang and Fann. Yeah! A MTV was even make out of it. Those were the good old days......

Mid term Crisis

The last few days had been traumatic to me. The area of uncertainty over my job appear somehow. I guess my boss had indeed left a cut on my heart. The anxiety, the despair, the stress sparked off when my freedom of speech was restricted. Then, the errors tat i stumbled upon aggrevate the situation. Eventually, it snowballed and became a turmoil.

I must say i must say a big word of THANKS to my friends. I appreciate everyone's advice. This evening, jun shared her views and i felt so much better now. Though tired with work and some family problem, she is willing to listen in. And i call this REAL relationship. Relationship is not only abt dear do this, dear do that. It is in event of crisis u know how ur partner shows her concern to you.

Of course, i am not an ungrateful brat. hee.... Friends like Ken, Susien, Kin Jun, Suping and Lilian lent their support too. I am thankful. When friends in trouble, they will brave it out with you. It is also during this time when u know who ur real friends are. They never fail to disappoint me!

After hearing all sorts of comments, i felt a lot better. Not forgetting the chilling out session at Mambo where i glup shots of vodka. ha... Din get drunk but party till crazy. I am so much lighter now. A little conclusion that i made, there is no way we can prevent uncertainty. Do ur best wherever possible. I am giving myself too much pressure. I needed time to get over all these. A holiday or short break should do me good.

For now, i am pretty fine. The one day break was good. I picked myself up and move on. However, if there is suitable lobang for me, do let me know. I am very keen to find out more. Cheers folks!

Time to Go Away

Made some stupid mistakes just now. I somehow challenged my boss, in the end i had to suck thumb. I seriously wonder if i am up to the job. There are times tat i wish to avoid mistakes but eventually it will surface. I mean no one wants to make mistakes yet....haiz! I have tried. Sometimes i dun even know if i am wrong. Really dunno....

I want to move on in life. I heard many stories, to look for greener pasture. Even close friends like Ms Yong found a new job in EDB. Aiyoh... so nice. Intiallly, i tot i had opportunities to climb the ladder. However, as time goes, i see the ladder further and further away. I waited for opportunities. 1 mth, 2mth... 6mth... 8mth.... Still see nothing yet. I see a path leading to nowhere. How? How? How?

Been thinking thru many nites. Ed told me if i dun find this job suitable, leave before i grow even older. Once u move into ur 30s, things will change too quickly. I have no qualms abt that. To be honest, i am ok with this job except pple to pple relation and times that i blunder. So i am not sure if this is suitable for me. Besides, i have not embarked on a corporate type of job yet. Makes it hard for me to compare. That is y Lilian made an excellent decision to quit when she cannot stand the pple.

Damn jia lat leh... Dunno wat to do... The more i think the more frighten i felt. I tot i have settled into the job. Somehow, the wierd feeling returns again. Am i thinking too much, or am i giving myself too much pressure? Well, i guess i will have to buck up and at the same time look for even greener pastures.

Ugly Singaporeans

Sometime, i really feel disgraceful to be a Singaporean. A country with excellent hardware capabilities, educated workforce, advance technologies. BUT a lack of quality SOFTWARE. The people --- Singaporeans.

Despite being educated, able to understand 2 languages, they really irk me by their behaviour. Low EQ, no manners, act tough, gek seh boh seh! Yucks! I was happily dancing yesterday when this boy came over and push me away. For heaven sake, a simple "excuse me or do you mind" will do. Not even a word of apology. No wonder Cai Shen Jiang in his article in Zaobao brought up the topic of "Saying Sorry".

Was out in town this evening. Passed by a Car roadshow at Civics plaza. I happen to see this guy with his family buying car. There is nothing wrong with that. However, upon closer examination, i saw this guy carrying a less than 3 month old baby. Is buying a car more important than his new born? The poor wife got to carry the baby while waiting for her hubby to place a deposit on the new car.

HELLO! This is seventh month and u bring a new born to buy a car??? WTF? I pity the poor baby and his wife. Not sure if the wife is happy abt it, but i am sorry, i cannot stand it. Singaporeans? Are their state of mind clear?

When they go overseas, even worse. Singaporeans' WORST habits appear. Criticise this and that! Faint! DO NOT assume Singapore is the only place on earth. There are better places out there. The fact is we havent been there yet so in the meantime, learn to be understanding. As for countries that we always visit ie developing nations, I strongly believe they also want their country to be the best, or as good as Singapore! But they have to work with their constraints and culture. haiz...

Anyway, i do enjoy my stay in this little country. Although PM Lee, in his national day rally said, Singapore will become even more vibrant in the next decade, it is still long time ahead. Wat i always love abt Singapore is the SECURITY. Never in other places (except Switzerland, felt very safe even in a remote village when i been there few years ago) can i travel so safely at nite....

Soured love

Was back from my sat routine. While waiting for my hair to dry, i chilled out in front of my PC tuning in to RETRO. Chinese song this time. Remember Gu Hao, who used to be pretty popular during the mid 90s? I was a fan of his cos his head voice was almost perfect. Every guy tried to imitate but failed. I remembered i was in my sec days.

I think i saw a report on him recently. No more album but turned backstage. Missed his voice. There was once when i asked a young friend, has he ever heard of Gu Hao, his reply was NO. Opps, think the generation gap is widening. ha... 4 years younger than me but never heard of Gu Hao... Wau lau eh... Talking abt age, i also feel a bit old. My mum said i am almost 30 in a few years time..... Eek!!!!

Before i crapped further, i was reading this blog abt a guy's failed relationship. Aiyoh.... He admitted it was his fault for the failed relationship. He is now in his deepest regret.

"I was taught how to be a better boyfriend n most important is how to be a better person in life. I been changing alot n til now i nv stop trying. I wanna prove to her that i really can do it n i hope she will come back to me one day even to the extend of kneeing down infront of her."

Oh well, kneeling will not do anything good. It was his fault. Wat happen? I am not too sure. But they guy has hurt the girl so badly that she has become a Shuay Por. (Read Slut)

"I made a terrbile sin in my life n i couldnt forgive myself forever for what i had done to a ger that once loved most. A sweet, cute n innocent girl in the past changed to now what she is.....is all my fault!!!"

"Why does things had to be in this way. Hurting her own body is not loving herself. How i wished she could love herself again."

To be serious, no matter how heart broken u are, never turn yourself into a slut. Same for guys. Youngster nowsadays give little or zero concern to their body. Why torture yourself? I feel very sorry for their parents. Our bodies are given to us from our parents. Watever we do, it is like a knife stabbed deep into their heart. I cant understand why pple behave like this.

Back to the story, the poor guy must have done something terrible to the girl seeking for forgiveness. If she has made up her mind, i guess it is also time for him to move on. I know it is VERY DIFFICULT. But the world is round, relationship is not the key to everything. Oh rite, uncle preaching again. ha...... Shall end here... If not, uncle turns naggy again....

Nostalgic Moments

Yes yes yes. Finally had my off day after a gruesome week. Think i am more fortunate to start my wkend earlier than others. Met up my NTU friends for dinner this evening. It was great. Seeing them made me at ease, well jun joined in the fun too. The torture over the last few days was unbearable. I was very depressed but picked myself up quickly.

Was at Marina Square, then tried out Raspberry blended tea which was nice. Hmm... think i will have tat the next time. Ed updated on his work, he is pretty comfortable. Less complaints and willing to work. Poor liyan is struggling on her work. Peanut pay but long hours. Wonder if her boss will appreciate that... Anyway, think most of my classmates are embarking on their career smoothly, though met with some ups and downs too.

Met a Primary school friend yesterday. If you are reading it now, yes its you Mr Chua. 13 years since we last met? We came from different class but got to know each other during "House Practice".... ha.... And I think we won in one of those races during those days. Wonder if he still keeps the old throphy.... We have matured and changed. The last time when i saw him, we were little boys. Now, young executive with aspiring career. ha... If we consider that too....It was nice catching up with him. By the way, he has a pretty gf. Maybe he can intro intro the next time we meet.... hee....

Test your EQ

Day in Day out. Been busy over the last 48 hours, almost non-stop. I started work early but arrived home late. I broke my record yesterday. Was in office from 11am till 1am. Ha... personal best!!! To be truthful, i dun mind working late with pple who appreciate your work. My senior was good. Took very good care of me and i am very thankful for his guidance.

Of course, the "friendly icon" is still there. Always waiting to strike on you when there is a chance. And i MEAN it. For some reason, i was pretty tired cos of the extra workload i need to do. Somehow, my brain reacted more slowly, as a result, i took probably a longer time to finish my work. ("friendly icon" Tot) The person was not very happy and hurl negative remarks on me. Thanks lor.....

I cant understand why pple react this way. We should help each other in times of crisis. No, we should harm each other instead. ha... Strange rite. I got to agree in this job, your EQ is put to test. Pple with high EQ are able to cope, but a few could not and start venting their outrage on you. I have learnt to be more tolerant, more forgiving. ha... Anyway, i can finally have a good rest tonight. Things going to resume normal tomolo. phew....

Unexpected Turn of Event

I am very depressed. Badly affected by wat happen today. A person whom i always hold in high regards ended up with a sudden change of behaviour. Wat's wrong? I dun know. I really dun know. Pple stabbing hard at you while u were not aware? Lousy? Incapable? Maybe that is life. I feel very sorry for myself.

I could not do wat others can. NO FREEDOM! Speech restricted, action restricted probably even restricting the number of times u visit a toilet in future. ha... Faint! Wat in the hell has this world come to? Why cant i live in peace? Maybe that is my retribution. Somehow lost confidence with pple. Nothing done yet hurt by pple out of nowhere. haiz....

Anyway, i am going to bed. Hopefully it will be a better day tomolo. May the force be with me. I need a break. I really do.....

Personal Transport

My best friend caught me by surprise when he bought a new car. Well, he was pretty debt ridden but still able to get a car. Probably he did his maths and find it affordable. It is nice to sit in a new car, with the new aroma, nice seats. ha... Ying was very enthusiatic when he sat on the car. Looked here and there to inspect every corner of the car.

Of course there is the car idiot (ahem your truly) ha.. Din know anything except the feeling of a new car. With ur own form of transport, you can get to anyplace anytime at your convenience. The cost of such luxury is humongous. I am glad i dun need to be burden with that. However, having a car has its own prestige. Imagine ur mum telling ur cousins, "Wun Gia Aei Qia" ha.... feel shiok shiok lar....

Whether to own a car or not is a personal decision. I would say most guys prefer to own their vehicle except me. ha... strange... Till now, i dun have the intention at all. Is it the cost attached to it or other reason? Eh... dunno. I am pretty satisfied with the current public transport system. Ok, i complained abt some buses. Overall, still not tat bad.

Probably i have a bigger goal. ha... To own my condominium. Yeah! A unit with excellent view will be good. Read the story on Zaobao. At the age of 39, this guy is living comfortably in a condo with his wife and family. A 1600 sq feet unit, 4 bedrooms. Very attractive ya. Definitely more expensive than a car. That is why it is easier to own a car than a condo. Maybe i should also forget abt the dream.... ha... I have another 13 years to work hard. hee....

Courageous Move

Tried the higher platform for the first time at dbl o just now. Wow wow.... I understand why pple enjoy standing at such a high position. You can scrutinise every corner of the place, cleaner air and not being disturbed by irritating pple. It really take lots of courage to stand at the higher platform. Reminded me of the time spent in MU. There was once that i stood on a higher platform too... but not as powerful as the one in dbl o.

Anyway, music wasnt good. Met the same few pple who party every wkend with us. But they are definitely hardcore dancers than us. They mambo every wed then proceed to dbl o on sat. Nothing to say. Well, they are students and NSF. I wonder where they get all their money from. During the time when i was a student or NSF, i opted free entry in MU. If you were to ask me fork out 20 bucks back then, no way man. But things are different now.

Tried out the function of my brand new phone. COOL! I transfered a couple of songs into the phone. Boy, the quality was good. My colleague said it was so much better than Nokia. Well, maybe Samsung sell entertainment appliances too, which made them expert in sound technology.

Tried out bluetooth function. I have been a "mountain turtle" for a very long time. Blue tooth technology made life easier for everybody. Its like an upgraded version of Infra red. ha... But the technology did make transfer of files between phone so much easier. Getting more and more season to the phone. I like tat. I guess the money was very well spent without feeling any ache or dissonace at all.

Brand New E720C

In case u are wondering what the hell was that, it's my new hp. Yeah! Ha.... Rewarded myself with a new Samsung handphone. Partly to celebrate my seventh month into the job. Can't believe that i stayed so long. Been very stressful lately so bought a new phone to motivate myself. Self-fulfillment. Held on to the old model for more than a year. The old phone was with me since NTU days.

New Hp New Life. ha... Thanks to jun that i bought at a cheaper rate. Has budgeted the amount long ago to buy a new phone. It was just too bad that none of the phone caught my attention. Talking abt spending, it has also been a long time since i went for a retail theraphy. Ooh.... This one was good. Feel very happy and excited after getting the phone. ha....

My next retail theraphy is to get a Raoul shirt. whahaha...... Din get any new shirt nor tshirt for a long time too.... Of course not forgetting my overseas theraphy. Expensive hobby but definitely worth it. How how.... The urge of flying out is here again. Fortunately, the new phone manage to ease the tension a bit. ha.... After watching Da Chang Jin, feel like flying there again for Ginseng Chicken.... yum....

I am BACK!!!

Opps... Been missing for the last 5 days. All thanks to Jewel of the Palace aka Da Chang Jin. I became mad after watching disc after disc for the last 7 days. A set of 50 disc which means 50 hours of non stop action from the serial. I even sacrifice TVB serial for Lee Ying Ai. Really madness, endless of late night sleep, episod after episod.

I even miss my regular gym session. Ha... Suddenly, remembered the time i used to catch TVB serial when i was in Poly. ha... I used to rent tapes to watch but with SCV now, decide to give it a miss. hee... Da Chang Jin was indeed a sincere production. However, near to the end, the story became pretty bored with all the love and stuff story. Shall not elaborate, wait till u see the show. But the ending was good, all well and xing fu. hee....

Due to late night sleep, get tired easily at work. Was assigned to be the coordinator for NDP live satellite feeds. God, seems simple but to remember and take down the correct timing was tough. Colleagues came asking where to get wat and when did a particular event take place. A slight delay in work will affect the entire production crew. Eyes became tired since the torture went on continously for 6 hours.

I could not take it anymore. When i reach home last night, dozed off immediately. Gave Chang Jin a miss. I used to feel very patriotic and touched during National Day, but somehow this year, felt very differently. I am not sure if it was due to work or for some other reasons. Anyway, birthday over and life moves on. I am adjusting my life to resume normal too....hee....

Unforgettable Moment

Yes, finally took some time off to do some blogging. Been busy after meeting up Jun on our anniversary. Time flies and it has been a good three years since we first dated. The relationship wasnt long nor short. But comfortable! Thanks to the little ring she bought for me. I love it.

We spent our night (that night was tues) at the all time favourite Esplanade. Couples sitting along the river, enjoying paranomic scenery of skyscrapers, merlion and Clifford Pier. It was a fine evening. I always enjoyed the quality time spent together. I mean spending time with someone you love, talking to her makes me a satisfied person. Yar rite, being simple again....ha....

I remembered the first time we met. Yes, the camp. I was in that stylo korean long hair (ok in case u puke, i used to perm my hair) instructing freshies to play orientation games. ha... sucky... I guess this is fate. I was the one who pair her and myself up during the "secret pal" game. Ha... I was the IC for the game ha.... So in the end, Jin Shui Lou Tai Xian De Yue". But seriously, at tat time, i dun really know who she was.

There were so many freshies in the camp. I paired people up and when there were insufficient guys or gals, i get my committee to join in. During tat time, i was too busy with running the camp that I dun really have the time to check out who she is. It was till the last nite when our identities revealed, then i found out. I still did a little dance with her. kekeke.... It has been a good three years and i hope more good years ahead.....

Work Hazard

Shock and disbelief! ha... Lilian and Ken are birds of the same kind. ha.... Both cannot tolerate unprofessional work behaviour. Eventually, both will call it a day if they felt resistance. Well, i can definitely understand that. For one, i went thru the same phase before. I guess my endurance level is much higher than them. But hey, i still complain, remember?

3 Words to describe

DISGUSTED, DISORIENTATED, DISAPPOINTED!

I felt exactly the same when i came over to the company. Really feel like giving a slap on the face, same like Lilian. She is just unlucky. Initiating a handshake, yet someone turned away and said not necessary. I do encounter things like when u put on a smile, pple can pretend nothing and walk away.

To make things worse, some even call u STUPID indirectly. Is that the kind of treament that you want? Humans have pride, they are also their parents' son and daughter. Work stress is fine, but the emotional stress, that is the challenging part. Anyway, i always believe there is always a greener pasture on the other side, so make the best out of it.
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PS: Had a great celebration this evening with jun. Wat's so special? Well, will update more when the day is here.

Poly Clinic

I am extremely disgusted with the type of service provided by Singhealth. No doubt they provide the cheapest form of consulation, the service they rendered correlate directly with price!!! I would have expected some value added advice but NO! Not forgetting the doctors here graduated with at least a second upper or MBBS. They are the top notch in the society. Only the best qualify for the medical school. However, it was utterly disappointing.

I was on a visit to one of the polyclinic. Recently, there is some problem with my eye. Went to see a GP, provided excellent advice. He was able to tell me wat went wrong, wat are the serious consequences. Then, the condition din improve neither did it detoriate. So decided to seek for another doctor advice. This time from a polyclinic practitioner.

Doc: How can i help u sir?
Me: Something wrong with my eye
Doc: Let me see. (Use a torch to shine into my eye)
Me: How?
Doc: I cannot see anything
Me: That was wat the GP said too
Doc: Oh, i can precribe you with some eye drop
Me: .... (If eye drop was good, i would not have come to consult you)
Doc: Ok?
Me: huh... (Show disgusted look)
Doc: Maybe i refer you to a specialist?
Me: ... (Bingo, that was wat i wanted)
Doc: Or do you want to try the eye drop first then refer to specialist later?
Me: Doc the problem has been with me for a month.
Doc: ...... I will write the letter, my nurse will make the appointment for you

I was out of the clinic in less than 5 mins. No advice. Nothing. Keep stressing there is nothing wrong. Aiyoh. I cannot believe it. I waited for more than half an hour for a 5 min consulation. If the service was good, i got nothing to complain abt. Totally UNPROFESSIONAL! Our health and life lies in the hands of doctors. They are supposed to be the experts. Yet, they can claim nothing, hoping to get the patient out of his room quickly.

Now, i have to go online to see what my condition is all abt. Even from the advice of Jun and her friends. So does that make us doctors too? This is RIDICULOUS and ABSURD. For now, i lost all the confidence in a poly clinic. Long queues, kids running ard shouting, auntie lecturing kids, fragile elderly whom i worried may collapse anytime, unfriendly looking nurses, long waiting time. These are things that i can still tolerate. Disappointed with the doctors.

No wonder ken always said "They know nuts". Agree. But they write powerful referral letters. Also agree. That is still a consolation to me. Anyway, i hope the specialist would offer better advice. If not, the reputation of Singhealth would be at stake.