Sicko Child

Some pple ask, why am i so frightened when pple ask me abt having kids. A very simple reason. I am afraid when they grow up, they will turned their back on you. Its so terrible. The feeling is like biting ur own flash. Kaz and another friend keep telling me kids are so cute and innocent. They are so fun to be with. I totally agree when they are young. Once grow up, Devils.

No one would ever want their child to be raised up this way. No mother or even father will brainwash their kid with this kind of sickening idea. Dearie argued with me a couple of time whether it was a person's character or the disability of raising up a child that result in a turn of event. Till today, i still insist character because if it was the disability of raising up a child, all the kids will behave more or less the same. However, that isnt the case.

I am just simply furious once my rest is disturbed. How can a kid be so sicko? Yes, i lost my temper again but under control. I wanted some quality time to watch tv yet it was disturbed by some "irritants". What i can say is the pot is calling the kettle black. There are times that pple dun understand why my views are extreme. I would say pple have not gone thru the trauma that i went thru over the last decade.

I admit there was some peace over the last 5 years, however, things start to change as the bomb explodes. I have expected things to turn out this way. It is only a matter of time. I tot by this age, one would have matured and turned better. Proved me wrong again! Sigh... It is so unfortunate. That also explains why i dun sleep ard like other friends. My principle is there and more importantly, retribution. Wat goes rd will eventually come back to you.

Many pple have associated clubbing with knowing girls or guy and eventually sleep ard. Ha! I dare to say i dun. Imagine if it was someone close to you. It send chills to my spine. Yes, i enjoy clubbing but i know where my limits are. To somebody, they go all the way out without considering the feelings of others. Sigh again.....

To be honest, i am not afraid of marriage. I am slightly turned off by the tot of having kids. At this moment, if you ask whether would i want a kid, i can instantly tell u "NO". However, in the long run, i am not too sure yet. I always believe as one moves along the way, things change and tots will also change. When the needs arise, i will have one. hahahhahha...