A Fool

Sometimes I really feel extra, trying hard to help but eventually end up in a pool of deep shit. True enough, the more you expect, the more disappointment you get. I feel when i treat some pple well, the return i get is almost nothing. I know one shouldnt expect any return when u r out to help but i just couldnt stop myself from thinking abt it.

Just feel like a fool. I hate this kind of feeling. Mumbled to myself on the way home. I kept telling myself not to be a fool anymore. Yet time and again, i lost myself. Such a disgrace. I have gone thru the same shit many time and yet i commit the same mistake. The only reason, my character. It must be this character that shaped wat i am, if not, i wouldnt get hurt so many times.

Have been hearing a lot of stories lately. I am thinking where i stand. After hearing all the happening stuff, i take a step to reflect. Have i ever done the same thing? Honestly, i dun think so. Instead, i have pple who did "disservice" to me MANY times. Dearie said "disservice" was a strong word. I disagree.

我掏心掏肺对人，换来的只是一场空！有些人良心不见了，我还傻傻地等，以为这只是个梦。现实就是现实。人不为己，天诛地灭。我看这场游戏还会持续下去。。。