无常 难过

This is one of the saddest day in my life. I tot I have other issues that will make me upset with life, blame on life or watsoever. When I heard of the shocking news, I felt thunder struck. I have never have this feeling in my life. I felt like crying but no tears, my heart shattered n somehow i feel the pain. Nothing to do with the stupid Jack Neo issue. Its abt friend. As I write, I really feel the pain in my heart.

A close friend of mine told me he had cancer. I was speechless for a minute. I mean he is younger than me, so close to me and yet he contracted this kind of diseases. I am afraid, i am worried, I dun want to lose my friend. To me, he is my brother, he is my close friend. I was nearly in tears as he unravel the truth to me.

He showed me his operation photos, he showed me his stitches. I mean i find it really hard to accept. I teared as i wrote this entry. I dunno, i just feel so pain and he is still looking optimistic. I was told he had a 60% of another attack. Though he had removed the cancerous tumor, doc said it might just come back anytime. I told myself no matter how many diffculties I face, i cant compare to the pain my friend had to go thru.

I really teared as i wrote this entry. How could someone end up this way? Why? However, I am happy he recovered after the surgery. He was kind enough not to tell me wat happen till our party finishes. When i saw the scar on his stomach, I reminded myself, dun be complacent. Take good care n cherish the friends ard u.

I will pray for my friend. No more attacks. I want to see him get married and leave a long life. My brother, i will pray for u... I hope to see you even when we are 50 over years old.