Where is Sunshine?

Terribly upset. Yep. Dun ask me what happened. I am just disappointed with things turning out this way. I am gorging tons of food to forget abt the unexpected turn of event. I needed some peace, something to cool off my mind. As I type, i have the feeling of being stabbed in the heart many times. It has been a very long time since i had this kind of feeling.

Now, i have a better reason to think thru all over again. I have been defeated time over time. It has reached a stage where i almost give up. With the courage i regain now, yes, i am going to do it. I have been contemplating it over sometime. When things get too complacent, one becomes overly comfortable. That should not be the case.

Know something, I wonder wat is wrong. A good friend of mine is having a good time in Thai, living like a king. The other one is in down under living life to the fullest. The basic need of a peaceful weekend is not even there for me. Someone told me there is always sunshine after a stormy weather. Bullshit. There is no sunshine at all.

Things are not as comfortable as it is. I feel so much better after pouring out. To summarise everything, do not be complacent in life. Life is never a bed of roses. They are little teases to perk up your day. In reality, it is always worst than u thought.... Sui Yuan Bah...