Pong Pong Day

This morning was raining heavily. There were no cabs at my place. Despite numerous call, booking was full. I proceeded to town centre trying for my luck. Wow. Fantastic long queue, all trying their luck to get a cab. I gave up and took a train to Serangoon. Gosh. It was a wrong move to alight. I was hoping I may get a cab there, but there were a few pple in front of me at the train station waiting for cab too.

While waiting, more cut queue and i decide to give up. I realise I will be late for my appointment planned at 10am. I was left with no choice but to take the train again to town for cab. My appointment is at this ulu place in Heng Mui Keng Terrance. Damn. I dun even know the place. When i reached Dhoby Ghaut PS, thank god. Taxi were queueing up for passengers. MY GOD! I complained to the driver and he kept quiet.

While on the train, i suddenly turn emotional after i recalled Jun said she cried on bus uncontrollably, feeling so alone. For me, it is more like why am i overwhelmed with so many uncontrolled things in my life. I feel kinda sad cos most of my friends have stable job, 9-5pm, time for family, time for friends, time for love, time for marriage. For me, its like fighting a war. I am faced with so many obstacles and yet no body understands at times.

Some said they are used to my life. I dun really agree. Deep in their heart, they would want to see something or even expect something. Here i am putting out fire, there they start another one. I guess this will never end. Many just probably stood and scratched their head. Why work so hard? Its for the future right?

The more i think in the train, I really felt lost all of a sudden. Why is this happening to me? Am I thinking too much or am i not able to meet expectation? I always have to calm myself down so as to regain momentum to do my job. It is really a love and hate affair. haiz. I guess no body can fully understand the type of 水深火热 situation I am in. Pple, you are too fortunate. You can have plenty of time to fulfill all your social and personal needs. For me, it is just, thank god, another day had passed. Pong pong pong! hahahahha.....